"Crying Brooke"

So basically....I haven't been on here in a very long time. Ive had a pretty rough time these past couple of months. Like you cant even imagine the stuff I have gone through. Imagine doing the worst thing possible and then trying to fix it and multiply that by....alot...and that's what Ive been going through. I hit rock bottom and now I'm back again and it feels wonderful.

At first I honestly had no idea how I was going to get out of the hole I had found myself in, and I really I didn't care. Everyone talks about how they hear God's voice and I know exactly what they mean, its not this loud booming voice, its a soft voice in the back of your head that guides and keeps you protected. I have always heard that voice, until I got caught up in all my mess and then the scariest thing happened...the voice was gone. He stopped talking to me, I mean I wasn't listening. Then I knew something had to be done, something had to change, I had to change.

I just read over my first blog entry and something stuck out to me. I wrote about the two most important things in your life being music and your friends. I mean I understand how those should be important, but by no means should it be the most important. As I read over that it bothered me alot. Things have changed in my life so much that I realize that those things are awesome and great but my savior Jesus Christ is the most important thing in my life and should always be. The music and friends are just things that come after, just the perks.

I have realized all of this the hard way and just when I need it the most amazing thing happens to me, I met a man. This guys name is Barry, and he is a pretty extraordinary man. He was not only walking down the beach just like Heather and I were but he was carrying a huge wooden cross on his back. We were amazed. We had to speak to this man. So we chased after him, we ran like 6 miles down the beach trying to reach him before he left. As we walked down the side of the beach after him we talked about what we were even going to say when we finally reached him. I told Heather flat out that I was just going to cry. I didn't have a clue what I was going to say or if I would even be able to speak. She came to the conclusion that she was going to ask him why he was carrying the huge cross down the side of the beach, test him out alittle and see if he was real or not. And she did. We got up to him and we looked at him and she said hey, why are you carrying that? But things didn't work out like we had thought, instead of us testing him, he tested us. He answered the question saying, "Because all of these people need to know about my savior, are you a christian?" We were like oh yeah we are. But then he asked us why? Why were we Christians? What made us Christians? What in our life showed that we were Christians? Those are some pretty tough questions if your not ready for them. Heather said she felt like an idiot cause she didn't know what to say, she thought about it and said,"well because my life sucked before I found him and now it doesn't." All I could do was point out into the ocean. (I am amazed by all of Gods creation and its beauty. It is one thing that shows me how much God is real.) We talked to Barry for like 30 more minutes, and I cried the whole time, about faith and everything you could possibly thing of, and it had changed my life. I hope God does something amazing in his life because him and his family deserve it. And even though he called me "Crying Brooke" I will always love him and his family and pray for them daily because they are something special. He has shown me and made me honestly believe that people fall, and they fall again, and they fall again but God will help then back up. I know that personally because I'm standing right now.

-Thank you Barry. You have changed my life. I will do something more with it, I will make my life matter. I want it to be worth something. I want God to say,"Well done my good and faithful servant." Crying Brooke.

I'M GOING TO BE DIFFERENT. NO ONE IS GOING TO SLOW ME DOWN.

Wow. So this is my first blog. My name is Ashleigh Brooke Anderson. I am 17 and go to Moody High School. I have killer friends and would do anything for them if the time came. I tend to make new friends everyday. I believe there are two things that people should make a big part of their life and those are friends and music. I would be nothing without music. I love to sing but id rather listen to it. I have been through so much crap in my life and music has always helped me get through.

TAKING BACK SUNDAY IS THE BEST!
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Thats just alittle about me for now. You will get more later.
Anyways. Im gonna go.
Peace!